The Never Ending Battles by Sekotan

Since I was 12 years old I battled a horrid disease that is hardly spoken about but is coming to light. It is a battle that will last a lifetime, but with the right support and will power, you can learn to adapt and live a normal life. The disease is called Anorexia Nervosa. It is where a person starves themselves thin and think they are fat when in reality they are WAY too thin. There are so many causes of anorexia, mine was due to childhood abuse do to rape and being beat by my father. I had no control in my life and the ONLY thing I could control was what I ate and put into my stomach. I would make excuses why I didn't want to eat, either I was too tired, or I already ate or was just too tired to eat. I had boyfriends who told me I was too heavy at 100 pounds and was asked to lose some weight. And I did.. it was stupid, but I did it.

Then age 18 I took another turn for the worst.. I became bulimic. Bulimia Nervosa is where a person binges and purges. Eats high calorie foods and then enforces self induced vomiting, use of laxatives, diet pills, etc. While still fighting Anorexia and Bulimia I became pregnant at age 20. The bulimia went away due to the morning sickness, but the anorexia I still fought. I was blessed with a beautiful little girl that weighed 5 pounds 9 ounces,. VERY healthy baby.

Today I am still in the battles, but I am getting better. It is a long road to face alone, but with good friends and help of support groups it is not that hard of a road to face.

I hope that by sharing my story, I can encourage others to open up about their eating disorders and together we can all find hope and comfort.